"Peru ~ 11 Months Ago" by Randy Vanadisson
Updated: Aug 13
May 21, 2020
I changed my course heading three days ago. It feels right. It doesn’t mean I won’t continue to collect intelligence and share my analysis, but this blog cannot always be about dissecting what’s happening in the matrix. As you can see from my previous posts, I was not paying attention to something very important…actually most important. The calling from within – from the depths of my own unconsciousness. This started on Tuesday with an awareness of not paying attention to the self. When my priorities are based solely on the external world around me, my own death appears to run at me. I could not see this until a few days ago.
Day three, I understand the key concept is ‘discipline’, and the subject, front and center, is that of the soul. A paradigm shift is absolutely coming and that has to happen. It is time. What it looks like is still very much in the gestation stage. Though the perpetrators have a plan for the end result, it is a matter for each individual to set their intentions on the outcome. This does not have to be 1984 or Brave New World. We absolutely have the power within us to determine the outcome. The intentions must be selfless and grounded in reconnecting with the air, the earth, the water, a warm fire, community, family, and most of all - love.
I am not saying take your eye off the ball (as I look into a mirror), but without the soul’s direction, without proper discipline in understanding that priorities are more than just war strategy, we are blindly walking off a cliff. As I write this, many people are suffering, trying to figure out how to make ends meet, how to feed their families, and unfortunately in some cases, how to go on living. We take our perception of things for granted nearly all the time. In other parts of the world, and even here in the United States, people were born into this condition - starving with nothing. When you form your intentions about what the future paradigm looks like, do not forget this. It is absolutely necessary to consider the plight of others before you create your future.
In November of 2018, I took my first journey to Peru out of necessity, not because I was going on a vacation. I met an extraordinary healer who let me know right away, “This is difficult work.” What she did for me in those nine days was monumental. Her name is Carmen Santillan.
During our ‘sessions’, Carmen would sing these beautiful songs for hours during the ceremonies which lasted from dusk till dawn. As a professional singer for 40 years, that is something I wish I could do. Her voice was soothing, like fresh dressings gently applied to an open gapping wound right in the center of myself. There were others present on their own journeys as well. This process took nine days. Someday I hope to write about what that looked like, suffice to say that all my psychological walls were temporarily destroyed. Carmen saw though me as I would see through a clean window. She is the real deal.
Throughout the ‘process’, a common desire began to surface among all of us – “I wish I could take her songs with me.” As the week progressed, the light bulb went off. I knew I would be making another journey to Peru. Carmen and I struck an old-fashion trade agreement. I would record and produce her first album, and in return she would continue with my difficult work on a much deeper level…much deeper…
In June of last year, I set off on a second trip to Peru with a backpack full of field recording gear and the intention of connecting with the true self. That story may or may not be told someday, but I can tell you it was very difficult. Though Carmen’s charge was absolute, I must acknowledge the shaman Imika Tariru who prepared me for what was to come. There is a photo of him in the slide video you are about to watch.
These two nights, the first with Imika, which I call the Night of Many Deaths, and the second with Carmen, which I call the Night of the Anaconda, were some of the most challenging times of my entire life. Between the two ceremonies, I did a Kambo cleanse for the first time. I call it an organic inoculation. 😊 I haven’t been sick since, although I should get a booster soon! There is a photo of me several hours after receiving this medicine also in the slide video below.
The songs on Carmen’s album always take me right back there, instantly. There is a special place in my heart for all of her songs, but this one is my personal favorite. It’s the solitude and healing quality of her voice. I can close my eyes and get right back there – feeling the breeze – wrapped up in the energy of Kuychi Llaqta. I took all the photos at this beautiful retreat except the last two. The last photo was the culmination of that physical journey. I am sure you’ll recognize where it is. So sit back, turn up your speakers, expand the video window, and enjoy the view.
And to Carmen...Te extraño y siempre te amaré. Gracias por todo lo que hiciste por mí.